Ashes in the Light

Sometime in 2023, I decided to go back to school while holding a full-time job. It didn’t take long for me to realise I couldn’t keep up with the long hours—it had been so many years since I last studied, and juggling both worlds just became too much. So I made the decision to leave full-time work and took on a part-time job instead.

Even though I still had a source of income, I was lucky—blessed, really—to have the support of my boyfriend, now my husband-to-be, who stood by me through that decision.

Now that I’ve completed my studies, and with the wedding just around the corner (less than two weeks!), it feels like the right time to start looking for a proper job again. But truthfully, I’ve been struggling to get out of my comfort zone.

There’s a strange comfort in waking up whenever I want, deciding what to do with my day, and having the freedom to move at my own pace. It makes me wonder: is there a way to build some kind of income while still having that kind of flexibility?

With this luxury of time, I’ve found myself coming back here—to this blog, to writing. Picking up where I left off on WordPress feels like reclaiming a part of myself I had put away.

I’ve also been trying to manage my emotions. Therapy has been part of the journey, though even with it, I still find it hard to push myself forward. But they say answers will come in time, and things will eventually get better.

I truly hope they do.

If you’re reading this and also trying to figure things out—whether it’s your career, your emotions, or just how to get through the week—you’re not alone. I’m still learning to be patient with myself, to sit with the discomfort of not having all the answers. But maybe that’s okay too. Here’s to finding our way, slowly but surely.